A New Beginning….. Again

It’s been just over a year that I submitted my last blog post and I’d be lying if I said i’ve been too busy. There is a difference between being preoccupied/distracted/procrastinating and being busy. Being busy should reflect that you can’t “do” something because you are currently doing something else just as important or that needs to be done so as to free up time so as to do the “something” that makes you feel productive or fulfilled, if that makes any sense.

When I began writing last year I felt that way, productive with a sense of purpose, if only for a brief period of time. There were a number of reasons. I had been exercising regularly, improved my diet, stopped taking antidepressants, stopped drinking and smoking. One would have thought that I was on the right track and that was true to a certain extent. I’ve always been one of the those to the extreme type of people. A “habitual binger” is how I would describe it. Whatever I do I binge it, binge exercise, binge drink, binge smoke, binge gamble, binge eat, binge work, binge shop, binge tv, binge writing, binge relationships, binge sleeping, binge everything. I even binged my first blog posts……

The truth of the matter is that following my first post where I promised so much, I soon found myself slipping back into the same bad habits, the same feelings of depression began to rise up within me once again. Why was this? Why was it that on so many occasions over so many years had I tried and failed. The answer is quite simple really. It’s psychological! So how do you address these issues, these behavioural problems this binge mentality. That’s simple also. With the right treatment, not just any old treatment, the right treatment. And yes I know that everyone is different and different things work for different people but it has become all to clear to me that there are some people who work in certain professions and it’s like they are just going through the motions and I’m sure everyone has experienced it. Over the years I have visited numerous so-called professionals in the field of psychology and psychiatry and it is clear to me that they were all going through the motions. The reality is that there are very few people in this field that are truly driven to get results, real results and why is that? Because its hard work and let’s face it most of us don’t like “really hard” work.

Fortunately for me the universe has steered me into the path of someone who is truly dedicated to there work. I’m now moving to a new beat from a different place and it feels good. I’m still doing the service station thing and that’s fine, but I’ve started a couple of new projects that are really exciting and I’ve found the energy/strength to post again. I look forward to delivering on my previous commitment to share some of my experiences in dealing with my depression and life in general, all within a reasonable timeframe of course.

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